Josie (justtothesea) wrote,

Not today.

My dad passed away yesterday, just a day after he was admitted to the hospital.

Jorge M. He was only 65 years old.

It's too sudden.

He's been with my mum for 43 years, they were all the family they had here when they came to Australia. I've never seen her cry like that before, because she lost her first and only love, she lost her companion. It broke all of our hearts over and over.

We're back home and I see him in everything.

I kept trying to warm up his hands but I couldn't. I kept having the stupid thought that now I'd be able to see thestrals. It made me want to laugh and hate myself all at once. I want him back.

I want him to come back. We love him too much, we need him too much. My brothers keep telling me to be strong for mum and I don't know what that means, I'm trying not to cry in front of her and. I can't, I won't fall away into deep depression again, I'm trying.

Thank you all for the support and wishes and prayers. I don't know what happens now. I don't know.

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